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Assalamualaikum and Hello!

Today, well not only today, it has been quite a long time actually. I perasan that I likely to become other person when I reach here. I want to live up to others expectation. I get annoyed and envy easily when I see my friends are prettier than me, have lots friends than me, many people cares about them than towards me and other things that superior than me.

I wonder how this things get to me when I can absolutely (at least I think so) be myself when I am at my own home. Yes, it may occur due to environment. Too many sparkling friends that I assume myself only as a glass. Or is it just that I have low self esteem. Or is that I have some scary psychological problem. Okay not that scary, sorry.

Tak best tau hidup macam ni. Tak best rasa jealous ni. Tak enjoy hidup dengan envy ni.

Whenever I think I have this feeling, I always said to myself, she prays more than me, he diligent and give much efforts to become like that. I had once asked to my kakak, and macam biasa i got that ayat "everybody is different. They are good in what they good and they are bad with what the have flaws on" It did heals me on that time but once I forget those phrase, I become like this.

And whenever I wrote a blog post about these depressing moments, I realise that aku tak cukup lagi beribadat dengan Allah. Aku tak cukup lagi doa.

Just want to share my piece of mind. Because sharing do helps me get better. But to find that one special person is not that easy. Thus technology become the substitute. Yeah.

Assalamualaikum.

Mukaddimah

Assalamualaikum.

Setelah berjaya membuang blog-blog yg tak diperlukan and also, posts yg merepek (lol!), insyaAllah moga Allah permudahkan untuk teruskan berblog selepas ini.

The reason i come back is sebab sejak duduk Belfast ni, alhamdulillah Allah mudahkan untuk travel ke sana sini, so selalu rujuk blogger yg pernah travel. Senang nk jalan dan susun tentatif. Alhamdulillah dah ke Germany and London sejak 8 bulan dah kat bumi UK ni. (I'm a happy kid! ) So yes, nak juga membantu orang lain untuk berjalan jalan ke tempat yang pernah pergi. And insyaAllah bila berjalan bukan setakat usual travel, kita berJAULAH jom?

Jaulah tu apa? Oke terkedu seketika. Haha lol thiya. As far for what I am referring to, credit to blog Angel Pakai Gucci (APG), Jaulah means a group of people go to travel together. And kalau ikut my own definition is jaulah tu bila kita keluar dengan hati yang tunduk dengan kehebatan Allah. Kita pandang semua yang ada, semua yg berlaku, semua di bawah pengetahuan Allah. And apa yg kita nampak, kita ambil ibrah (baca:pengajaran) as we know everything that happens to us is what Allah has destined it to happen to us. Destiny does not happen without reason. (:

Oke done with this 'first' entry. See that apostrophe? Haha. Penuh draft dengan entry. Tapi malu nak post.  Hihi.

Thank you for reading! Have a great day ahead! (: